Happy First Birthday

Dear Olivia –

A year ago today as the day began, I was still anxiously waiting to meet you.

After almost two days of labor and the (at the time) impending doom of a C-section, I was both ready for you and scared of your arrival all at the same time.

But then, at 8:41 p.m. (by C-section), there you were. And in one second my reality, my heart, my way of thinking about things, my way of looking at the world, and my entire life changed – all for the better, all because of you.

I have had the pleasure of making your life, your learning, your comfort and your needs my new fulltime job. I’m thankful that I’ve been able to spend every day with you, making memories of your successes and growth along with you.

I’m in awe of how much you’ve grown over the past year. It seems like it’s gone by so slow and so fast.

When thinking back, I don’t know where my little tiny baby who had to be so gently cradled went. I know I was here by your side watching you grow, so I’m not sure how it happened. But, it feels like I missed the chunk of time when you grew into a little girl who points while asking for “this” or “that,” makes one of the greatest cow “mooooo”s I’ve ever heard, and is ready to rough-house at a moment’s notice.

You might be small, but you’re mighty and determined. You’re attentive and inquisitive. You want to figure out how everything works and you want to try it yourself. You’re sneaky and always up for a challenge. You’re so very loving and so very sweet.

I’ve learned so much from you during our first year together. You’ve made me stronger than I knew I could be. You’ve taught me a whole new kind of patience. You’ve made me appreciate taking time to breathe and really enjoy each and every moment.

I know all too soon, you’ll be running with the big kids, and when those days come, I’ll be waiting for the moments when I can still steal a quick hug.

As you get older, I want us to always keep being silly together. I want to always be able to make you laugh and for you to always know I will never be too busy to listen. And even when we’re at odds over something, please know, my love, that I only want the best for you. I love you more than I ever could have known.

So, dear Olive, Happy First Birthday. I look forward to seeing all the joy you’ll bring and how you’ll grow in the coming years.

All My Love,

Mama

Miss Olive in her party dress opening one of her presents at her first birthday party.
(More photos to come)